Wow, it has been two weeks since I’ve posted anything. I swear, as I get older time seems to speed up. It slips away so quickly.
Well, I am still not finished with my dissertation. I still have not started my write-a-book-in-a-month project. And I still do not have a job. What have I been doing for the past two weeks? I am not entirely sure. How does the time fly by so quickly without any visible productivity on my part? *sigh* I have been distracted with a video game – one that has not even been officially released yet. I have upgraded my computer to play said video game. I have 25 new books on my Nook. I sent out one job application. And I coded 50 articles. In two weeks, these are my accomplishments. That accounts for maybe 20 hours of work, in 14 days. *sigh*
I have always had a problem with motivation and procrastination. Stick a deadline in my way and I will wait until the last minute, BUT it is enough to get my butt in gear and I WILL finish. I always have. Give me all the time in the world to finish a project and I putz around and never finish it. And giving myself deadlines has never worked very well.
So here I am. A month before said game releases. At the end of my self-imposed deadline to finish the dissertation. On the verge of the summer. Responsibilities piling up and what am I doing? I am researching Fall 2012 television premieres. There are a few really interesting looking shows, but there is so much I have to get done between now and then!!
That is all. I have not abandoned my writing dreams. I have not forgotten about my blog. I am just trying to find a way to force myself to deal with the responsibilities I am dreading, especially finishing the dissertation.
Like driving an old car without power-steering, I am trying to turn myself around to get back on track, but it feels like I just keep putting one hand over the other, over and over, turning that wheel…
Any ideas to motivate myself?